So this is my first video diary. It is October 13th which is a Thursday 2011. And I'm just starting to figure out my new computer and I don't know I guess I'm liking it so far. It's obviously a different ball game for me because I've never used this before. So I guess these will be as tedious as my audio recordings have been.

I guess to start off this one, just a few updates from the last few days, there really hasn't been all too much going on except now for this and I'm extremely excited, I'm extremely excited that I'll be able to Skype and obviously keep a video log, take some pictures and that I have something that I can finally call mine.

I don't know. It's been a long time since I've been able to call something mine and now that I have something even you know as silly as saying that I have a computer and a camera and a phone granted you know I wouldn't have the phone without (NAME REDACTED BY PERSON WHO POSTED VIDEO) and I've actually now paid for my own computer the camera was a gift but these are things that are mine that I dont have to I don't know that I don't have to give back.

It's kinda nice finally being able to say that I have some belongings that are mine, that I will be able to take with me after I leave here next year.

It's kinda funny to think about actually. I know it's going to be a while since I leave, I'll be here for many many months more even if I'm only here for six months even if I get off of probation early, I'll still be here at least until February? The end of February? Seven months, March my birthday, either way whether it's six months or a year from now, or a year from the middle of August.

I don't know this has just been such a blessing in so many ways and now I in some ways have someone to talk to even when I'm by myself so I'm not bothering the poor dog. Who've I've adopted and I love and he's as much my dog as any of the other pets that I've ever had. You know (EDIT IN TAPE BY PERSON WHO POSTED VIDEO) families I've ever had if not more so.

So I don't know. I don't know whether to look directly at myself or look up or... Oh man I don't know, just a little surreal how much things have changed since July and how many things haven't changed. But the good thing is that things are starting to look up and things are starting to change in a good way and I just hope they stay, that things stay good and that they only get better they'll only get better.

So this is the end of my first video log. I'll probably do another one later. Maybe I'll have (REDACTED) maybe I'll bring the dog. Who knows? But this is again the first of many and I'm looking forward to this. It's a little bit scary because I hate being on camera but I don't know I need to conquer that fear at some point and this is a good start so here's hoping. It's the end of the first, just the beginning.