ORLANDO, Fla. – Pulse nightclub shooting survivor Norman Casiano, 26, is trying to get used to his new normal.
"I can't sleep unless my legs are in an arched position because of the nerve," he said.
The Gay and Lesbian Community Center donated a hospital bed to make him more comfortable at home, and right now he uses a walker to help him get around.
"It feels like it's been a year, not a month, and it's been a whirlwind of different emotions and feelings," he told News 6's Louis Bolden.
Casiano was shot twice at Pulse nightclub. One bullet fractured his pelvis the other his tailbone
One month after the shooting, he says going out in public is still difficult, especially if it's loud and there is a crowd like there was that night.
"So I guess that's just like a trigger," he said. "And my brain automatically freezes and it's like, 'Oh my God, Oh my God, Oh my God,' and my chest gets really tight," he said.
Casiano says seeing the shootings of Alton Sterling, Philando Castille, and the police shootings in Dallas have also taken a toll, but the more immediate issue is the medical bills that are starting to roll in creating even more anxiety.
"Now I'm like at a step zero," he said. "I feel like I just finished high school, it's like, 'What do I do now?' I have no money no job, no ability to do anything yet," Casiano said.
People have donated more than $17 million to the One Orlando fund, but not a dime of that money has made it to the victims yet, and it won't for months.
Until then, Casiano says his family is keeping him afloat.
"I couldn't be more happy to have my mom and my dad backing me up, because myself I honestly don't know where I would have begun," he said.
City officials still say they hope to get money from the One Orlando fund to the victims by Oct. 1.